Where I Am

Music has always been and will always be a big part of my life. It inspires me, makes me happy, makes me sad, understands when I want to work harder - without interruption. It makes me pedal harder, dig deeper, think longingly for what was, what could have been, and what is just a distant memory.

Two songs right now are reflecting my current states.

This is what I'm playing when I'm feeling my moody side come about.



I listen to that (I prefer it without the video) and get all sad and depressed about how fucked up we are, and how things really never may be the same - on both a grand scheme and a personal one. It's still a new song to me so I won't get into what it may or may not mean. I don't care, and you shouldn't either. It should be about how it makes you feel. That's why I like it. For whatever reason it strikes a chord in me that triggers some heavy thoughts. I like when music reaches me that way.

The other song I'm digging right now is this one.


Totally different vibe than that tune from Manchester Orchestra, eh? I think it's because right now I've got two main things going: super happy and really sad. I think for the most part life is pretty damn good. I'm healthy, busy with work, riding bikes, and spending lots of time with good people. But while that's all rosy, I'm still lost in my own head a little bit every day. Sometimes I swear I'm my own worst enemy. Hopefully it'll all go away with time, but some things will likely linger. That's ok. That's life.